An observation

14 Oct

After yesterday’s meeting with Belle & Team 100, I’ve been doing alot of thinking about drinking, spent alot of time reading blogs and have been over all my last few posts. 

What’s become apparent is that there’s big periods of time between my posts. I start off with resolve, optimism, sometimes get as far as pink clouds, then I disappear. I crash. 

I come back to blog and reflect on what I already know. The lessons I haven’t learnt.

One thing I do know is that I love writing, and that writing more on the blog might keep me on track. Reading over what has been nearly a year’s worth of posts has certainly helped, because it’s reinforced what I already knew- that this really is a problem, and no matter how much in Friday’s post I insisted I get immense pleasure out of it, clearly, on balance, it causes me more harm than good.

I’m going to try and post more regularly, post when I feel the urge, post when I just want to put something out there.

Now, I’m about to head to work drinks, and have scoped out the options. I know this evening will be fine. I know my meal out on Wednesday will be fine. I worry about my pre-holiday Thursday night alone and the post-marathon holiday in Mexico, but for now, I’ll just focus on tonight. 

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4 Responses to “An observation”

  1. carrieonsober October 14, 2013 at 8:40 pm #

    You write well so I am looking forward to that!
    My email is carriecisfree@gmail.com
    Sounds like you have some good plans this week, happy to text Thursday if you are at a loose end…you have such an amazing wend to prepare for!

  2. Lilly October 15, 2013 at 7:59 am #

    Take Carrie up on her offer – she’s a great text buddy!! 🙂 If you want you can What’s App me too. Do you have What’s App?

    What if you committed to blogging every day for 30 days even if it’s just a few lines? Does that sound good? Or too much pressure? Or a bit of both? ;0

    Just a thought. No pressure intended. But blogging really can help us work out our thoughts and feelings about all this and keep us accountable. Says she who hasn’t posted in ages… Ok so I’m a hypocrite. But blogging and journaling have helped me tremendously over time so I highly recommend it.

    • FitFatFood October 15, 2013 at 9:01 am #

      That’s a really good idea Lilly- I’m abroad for 10 days, so might not have the chance to stick to it, but I will try my best!

      I’d love to be a text buddy if possible. All these things will really help me, thank you for being so kind, and so responsive on here.

      You know what it’s like when you start blogging these incredibly private, secret things. You feel like it’s actyally a diary, that no-one is reading or listening, and then they respond and you go “OHHH NOOOO, PEOPLE KNOW THE HORRIBLE THINGS I AM GOING THROUGH” swiftly followed by “Phew. They are lovely and kind. This will help.”

      • Lilly October 15, 2013 at 9:07 am #

        🙂

        Happy to help. We all know what it’s like.

        Email me with your number on onetoomany1 @ gmail and I’ll add you on What’s App – assuming you have or can get it? iPhone app.

        Given I’m down under my response time is going to be a little erratic. Like Carrie and I seem to text each other when the other is sleeping! So I may not be the best for immediate responses like someone (like Carrie!) in your time zone but I’ll respond!

        Enjoy your time abroad. Blog when you can. And maybe aim for daily blogging when you’re back in a routine? Or, whatever works for you. I don’t mean to be pushy here – just thought it could help.

        Onwards!

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