Treading water

I only appear to surface here when I’m struggling, it seems. I’m sorry for that. For my love of writing, for my sanity and for the effect sharing has on others.

I wanted to post today because I’m experiencing a period of mental darkness that’s manifesting itself in physically feeling down and being plagued with ailments, and practically manifesting itself by stopping me doing the things I know make me feel better: going to meetings, getting up and running, doing something of service.

This morning, I’m encompassed by inertia. I feel tired and low and incapable of making a coherent decision. Yesterday I was full of joy. The day before I was low. And the day before that, and the day before that.

What’s going on? What can I do to stop a downward spiral?