Surfacing 

18 Dec

Thank you to everyone who reached out following my desperate last post. I was so down in the dumps I didn’t even have the energy or inclination to reply. For that I am sorry.

Once again life has turned a corner. I feel normal again. I did what I needed to do for my own sanity and took myself out of my ever-chaotic life to get space and perspective and look after myself.

It has worked. I was suffocated and now I can breathe. For now.

And so the carousel turns again, and I’m back to that cornerstone of sobriety: the importance of self care. When I first got sober, I remember believing that my own sobriety was built on four pillars: self-care, spirituality, relationships and solitary space. When just one of those pillars becomes off balance, the whole structure can topple. Time and time again this has been proven to be true, and time and time again I forget to learn the lesson.

I’m lucky in that I don’t have the responsibilities of a family that mean I can slip away and take some time, but it required bravery at work to put my foot down and to display some weakness, which I hate to do, but has been so worth it.

I’m inching towards 2 years sober and every day I’m further down the road of being human. And that’s what’s so hard about sobriety- we have to learn over and over again in different ways to experience the world in technicolor. To accept the shades of grey as well as the dazzling light. It’s not an easy path, but I’m so bloody glad to be on it.

Happy Friday lovely bloggers!

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6 Responses to “Surfacing ”

  1. lucy2610 December 18, 2015 at 9:34 am #

    Good to hear you are okay lovely 🙂 We can all be thrown off balance and forget what works in the eye of the storm so be kind to yourself. And 2 bloody years? Fan-f*cking-tastic 😉 xx

  2. thirstystill December 18, 2015 at 6:23 pm #

    I’m really glad to hear you’re doing better now. Your ‘4 pillars’ sound like an excellent way to keep focused on things going well. I’m in a super busy spell myself and it’s easy to lose track, so thanks for reminding me what does work. Hope you get a break over the holidays, and I hope it’s lovely! xo

    • FitFatFood December 18, 2015 at 9:55 pm #

      Thanks so much 🙂 and gotta keep those pillars balanced 😉

  3. ainsobriety December 18, 2015 at 7:58 pm #

    Self care. That’s it. Hug

  4. SoberSecondHalf December 21, 2015 at 10:41 pm #

    I’m so glad that you’re okay! Caring for strangers who I’ve “met” through the internet is a weird but lovely phenomenon 🙂 Know that I am always pulling for you and look to you as a source of inspiration. Take care —

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