Four Years Sober

19 Jan

This week I turned four years sober. It passed gently, inconsequentially and I almost forgot to acknowledge it.

That’s how far things have come. Gone are the days of the minute by minute crawl towards bedtime, when I wanted to feel the sweet relief of the pillow, a sense of release and pride that I’d dragged myself through another day. Now sobriety is a gift I treasure, a part of life that feels as natural and precious as breathing, requiring a similarly unconscious effort.

I had some difficult times last year, but have emerged with a level of strength and dignity I’ve never before experienced. It feels exquisite and surprising. I have undertaken some work in the world that I could not have done without my experience of the lows of alcoholism, the structure of the 12 Step programme and the spiritual enquiry that it led me to.

Never when I was in the depths of the addiction could I have imagined how beautiful life could be without alcohol. All I craved every day was to feel better. An end to the cycle. Now I am experiencing levels of calm and bliss ‘beyond my wildest dreams’

Sobriety is worth every relapse, every struggle, every breakdown.

The power of this online community and the 12 step programmes have given me everything. Thank you to you all.

27 Responses to “Four Years Sober”

  1. Lisa Neumann January 19, 2018 at 3:29 pm #

    Happy Anniversary. Your post brings joy to my heart. A life well lived and people well loved is what it’s all about. Thank you for sharing with us. Much love.

    • FitFatFood January 20, 2018 at 12:14 am #

      Thank you Lisa. The one who taught me so much, yet we’ve never met. I appreciate everything you’ve done for me in this journey x

  2. greg w January 19, 2018 at 4:01 pm #

    What a wonderful way to begin my morning stroll through the Reader! God’s Best to you on your healing journey, Dear One. Definitely need to share!

  3. Gordon January 19, 2018 at 5:51 pm #

    Thank you for that wonderful share. I have 100+ days and I am still feeling that ‘pink cloud’…not as much , but still there! You were my first reading about my sobriety today and it was just what I needed to read. Thanks.

    • FitFatFood January 20, 2018 at 12:14 am #

      I’m so glad Gordon. Persevere- there were so many moments when I almost didn’t and I am so unbelievably glad I kept on the sober path 🙂

  4. ainsobriety January 19, 2018 at 10:24 pm #

    I agree wholeheartedly!
    Life is beautiful.

    • FitFatFood January 20, 2018 at 12:13 am #

      Always lovely to connect again wonderful Anne 🙂 Thank yoh

  5. feelingmywaybackintolife January 19, 2018 at 11:27 pm #

    Congratulations with your 4 years of sobriety. That is awesome! I am happy for you.
    xx, Feeling

  6. lucy2610 January 20, 2018 at 10:10 am #

    Huge congrats lovely!! You are so right in that it just keeps on getting better and better 🙂 xx

    • FitFatFood January 20, 2018 at 4:54 pm #

      Thank you Lou, you sober beacon of wonder!

  7. thesoberdiner January 20, 2018 at 4:17 pm #

    Congratulations on your 4 years! My journey is about a week or so behind yours so it’s comforting to know we’re still on it . SoberP x

    • FitFatFood January 20, 2018 at 4:54 pm #

      Ahhhh congrats on your upcoming anniversary!

  8. carrieonsober January 20, 2018 at 8:15 pm #

    Where has the time gone? I’m so happy to be reading this and your positivity and contentment just radiates throughout the post.
    You are such a fabulous inspiration, documenting the highs and lows all the way and championing the many successful paths to worthwhile, authentic recovery.
    I’m so pleased to know you xx

    • FitFatFood January 21, 2018 at 8:30 am #

      And I’m so pleased you scooped me up, sat with me in the lowest moments and showed me it was possible. Thank you Carrie x x x

  9. byebyebeer January 21, 2018 at 11:31 am #

    Congratulations on Four Years!! Such a lovely post and share.

    • FitFatFood January 21, 2018 at 9:16 pm #

      Thank you- your journey helped me so so much at the beginning x x x

  10. xomorgsxo January 23, 2018 at 8:08 pm #

    Congratulations that is amazing!!!

  11. primrose January 25, 2018 at 2:41 pm #

    Ooh just seen this! Much love and congratulations on four years of clarity and growth (often hard won, I know!) Would be lovely to catch up with you in 2018! Xxx

    • FitFatFood January 27, 2018 at 12:53 am #

      Thank you dearest Prim, one of my dearest sober pals! I’d love to catch up too, how time flies since that time at the museum where I was still wee-chick sober x

      • primrose January 27, 2018 at 7:09 am #

        Now you are a grizzled old sober eagle 🦅 😘 xxx

      • FitFatFood January 27, 2018 at 10:05 am #

        Hahahahaha, indeed

  12. Jim Hoffmaster January 28, 2018 at 12:58 pm #

    Congratulations on your continued succes. I am approaching month five, and I owe much of my success to your honest depiction of the struggles that occur on such a journey.
    Thank you seems inadequate but it is all that I can offer.
    Thank you!

    • FitFatFood January 28, 2018 at 3:30 pm #

      What a wonderful comment to receive Jim. Thank you. I had the same experience with other blogs and I’m so glad I have been able to contribute in any way, however small x x x x

  13. Chris January 30, 2018 at 10:26 am #

    Congratulations. Good to see you post again.

  14. krissycoconuts March 31, 2018 at 1:05 am #

    This is amazing and you are, too. ♡

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