I posted months ago about being very worried about my liver pain. That was one of the things that made me really seriously look at how damaging my drinking was. I had many experiences last year where I was experiencing pain in the liver area, sometimes crippling when I breathed in after a drinking bout.
I had always focused on the mental effects of alcohol, but now the physical effects were too great to ignore. I was terrified at the damage I was doing to myself. When you find yourself googling liver related issues it’s a BIG wake up call. You realise how integral that little organ is to your health, and realise that drink really could be silently killing you.
My doctor referred me for a liver test and I have to be honest, it took 6 weeks to pluck up the courage to go. Usually, I’m really proactive but with this, I just didn’t want to know. I was scared that in early sobriety, finding out I had liver damage would cause me to drink. F**ked up right?
I went for the test last week, and called the doctors today to get my results. They have been deemed normal. I’m so grateful, I feel like I’ve been given a ‘get out of jail free’ card.
My health has improved so dramatically since I’ve stopped drinking- people keep complimenting me on my glowing skin and I feel like a normal person again. I feel hunger and tiredness, sleep just as much as my body needs and my running is coming on leaps and bounds.
I’m 7 weeks sober and it’s starting to feel worth all the heartache and struggle. It’s the most valuable thing in my life and I absolutely cherish it. I’m so grateful to find my liver is ok, and will do everything in my power to keep my health in good form- I deserve more than to ruin it with drink.